Alexandra Hughes 0:12
Everyone and their cat is talking about witches. But what is a witch or medicine woman or priestess? How does one become one? And what is the common thread between women who identify as such magical creatures? Welcome to the witch hunt podcast, where we hold space for healing conversations that collectively explore these questions with the intention of celebrating of illuminating and elevating the rise of feminine energy magic and self sourced power. All in a world that's gone pretty much mental. Every new and full moon host is Aleksandra Beckel Hughes, who identifies as all three of these sacred tights in her own weird way, invites you to brew some tea to light a candle and to join her in her conversations with witches, medicine, women, priestesses, and other magical creatures from around the world. So come gather to share in the knowledge experience, magic and sacred stories of those women, who, once hunted to be burned at the stake, are now hunted, to be held in the light so that they so that we can illuminate the way.
Allison Holaday 1:27
Love is the greatest healer nature's the greatest healer. These two things are inseparable they work together in harmony. And anytime that we're trying to heal without love, it's never gonna work. And anytime we're trying to heal without nature, it's never gonna work.
Alexandra Hughes 1:46
Hello, and welcome to episode 45 of the witch hunt podcast from or school to Bliss and back again, with Alison little feather holiday and indigenous medicine woman, galactic energy healer, and Earth school survivor of three near death experiences. In this episode, Alison nonchalantly answers some of those age old existential questions. Why are we here? What is the purpose of suffering and what's on the other side of this life? Specifically, Allison speaks to the concept of her lived experience in the hardest dimension of all, births school. We're all here. We're all feeling. She talks about suffering and chronic illness and how she's come to honor her call to be of service through her many many gifts, and also how she navigates this world as an open channel who feels all the fields. And here's all the messages from all living creatures. Alison also shares what she saw and felt on the other side of the veil during her near death experiences, giving us insight into what lies beyond and reminding us of the mystery. We're all here to surrender to. There is great magic and wisdom in this episode. Enjoy. Alison little feather Holliday, welcome to the woodshed podcast. It's such a pleasure to have you here. I'm really honored and I can't wait to dive into this conversation.
Allison Holaday 3:20
Yeah, thank you for having me. Thank you so much.
Alexandra Hughes 3:24
You're so welcome. You're so welcome here. Allison, would you be open to starting off our conversation by introducing yourself?
Allison Holaday 3:33
Yes. So my name is Allison Holaday, my native name is little feather that was given to me in ceremony. Yeah. And basically, I've had three near death experiences in this lifetime. And the first one was four and a half and then the two were after 40 years old. And I have many different spiritual abilities that I had as a child, but I kind of stuffed them down. And then after the near death experiences as an adult, they came flying out stronger and stronger each time. And so I'm basically healer, medicine woman, native medicine, woman, healer, animal, communicator, animal, healer, medium. I communicate with animals and people living in past SEER I go on visions, I see all sorts of things. And I have about 90% consonant telepathy so I can feel everyone and everything all the time, what people are going to say how old they are just everything kind of downloads to me. So I'm not really sure how to encapsulate it so much because it's always shifting and changing what I can do but like that's like the that's like the brief version, I guess.
Alexandra Hughes 4:43
Yeah, let's just jump right in there. Thank you, thank you for like sharing yourself so openly like that. There's so many things that we can dive into today. As you know, the witch hunt podcast is where really about illuminating the stories and the voices and the magic of magical women, medicine women, just like you. And I would really love to know a little bit about your story maybe beginning in those early days, you know, your relationship with, I guess, a seer, maybe that came to life at four and a half, maybe that you remember things before? How did this all begin?
Allison Holaday 5:24
So I was born deathly ill with a spiritual mystery illness, and I was definitely ill from birth to four and a half. So for two years of my childhood, I did not grow an inch are gained a pound, it was very alarming to the doctors. And you have that growth chart, you know, everybody remembers a growth chart. And like I was like falling off the growth chart. And so it was very alarming and they couldn't figure it out. They tested me for a million things. And I had all these weird sensitivities, like food allergies, like all these bizarre things that they could not figure out what was really going on. And at four and a half, I had my first near death experience. And basically my light team came in, saved me, she's built for greater things, she can't go and came in, swooped in saved me. And then the next day I was eating, I color in my face. And that was that. So I don't have a lot of cognitive memories of that one. So much. But yeah, basically, that's what happened with the first one. And then I was in remission sorts, till I was 40. And then the mystery illness came back again, at 40. And then two subsequent near death experiences as well. But those I have full memory of those, the adult ones I had, I could tell you every detail of them like in credibly, but as a child, I was always very sensitive, and I could see things and feel things and hear things and I cried a lot. And I couldn't figure out like hugging people, if they were crying, like my friends, their energy would go into me, and I could feel it too. Like he, I didn't even know I was healing them. But I was holding them and hugging them and then their energy would come in to me. And then of course, I felt terrible. But they were feeling better. So I was doing this stuff. Because I've been in many past lives. I've been indigenous healers, I was attain, oh healer in a past life. Like other ones. It's really interesting. So I'm just doing my thing, sort of, but I don't even know what I'm doing. And like, I feel kind of crappy. But I'm drawn to like that. And so I would have these different visions, and I'd share with my mom and she'd blow me off. And kind of like make fun of me or whatever. Oh, yeah, yeah, whatever. And so I just sort of stuffed it inside. But I had a very private, sensitive mystical world as a kid, I guess you could say.
Alexandra Hughes 7:53
Yeah. I'm curious to know, like, particularly now that you've mentioned that your mom kind of blew it off. How do you know now that at four and a half, like without, you know, I know, our memory forms around that time. But how do you know that that's what was happening, but the light team was coming. Oh, I channeled that. You've channeled that.
Allison Holaday 8:14
Yeah. Later on. Like, as an adult with all these abilities after 40. I was able to channel and go and say, Well, what really happened there? Like how did I get into this remission? And then I was shown the Near Death Experience the light team coming in? Yeah. So I can check on things.
Alexandra Hughes 8:31
What are the things growing up that helped you to see this truth that was evolving inside of you? I mean, you experienced it, but as a child, like you said, you were kind of going along and doing your own thing. Were there any 3d worldly support mechanisms, structures, humans? Or were you just it was a she's like for people listening? She's like nodding, no, just you can't see her. She's like, laughing No, I was an island so and what what gave you like that confirmation?
Allison Holaday 9:09
I don't know. I, I mean, I was very much an island. That was very much my family's scapegoat. I was in every family has one and kind of the black sheep that didn't fit in, you know, so I didn't really have anyone in my immediate family to speak about these experiences with because if I did a little bit, it was kind of shut down immediately. So I didn't really have much of a refuge for it. I kept it very private. I kept it very private.
Alexandra Hughes 9:35
And that's within. Okay, now, so now, I don't know what your upbringing was. But is that within an indigenous context?
Allison Holaday 9:45
No. So basically, my mother is Italian 100% And I'm Native on my father's side, but he knew, but he didn't live the ways very much, but he knew he knew that he was in need. showed it to us. And he shared it with us. But he didn't really live it so much in his life. And so I've gotten into the ways as I've gotten older, and I met elders, and they showed me and they taught me who I was. They helped me understand what I was doing later on after 40, that I started to become a healer in this lifetime. And I could pull things out of people with my left hand. And I explained this to them. And I didn't know what it was, but I can do it could be tumors, emotions, trauma, all sorts of things. I named it, I founded it, and called it energy release therapy, because I'm basically pulling the energy out. And they kind of guided me and said, That's what, that's what this is. That's what we do. And then they kind of like, mentored me and helped me figure out who I am. So I was already doing it, but I didn't know.
Alexandra Hughes 10:49
Yeah, yeah. And that's, that's remembering, right? That's all like remembering your kind of you are something or you're doing something and then all of a sudden, that something happens. That helps you to remember it, contextualize it, remember who you are, give it meaning and then be able to kind of take it forward. What do you remember? What were those remembering moments for you, Alison? Like you said, you met, there was a ceremony and then you find these, how did you find the elders who were able to support you? And what happened at 40? That kind of woke you up and helped you make sense of it all? Was it 40 that that happened?
Allison Holaday 11:29
Yeah. So I got sick again at 40. In 2016, I got sick again at 40. And it was the same mystery illness, I had six organs shutting down, I weighed about 90 pounds. And I'm a little person anyway. So yeah, it was very dire. And then I had a near death experience. And at the time, I had a dark night of the soul while being sick. I had no family there, marital support, all sorts of different things. Friends, I was in complete isolation, everyone fell away. And I couldn't understand why no one was there to help. So it was really, really wild. And so through that dark night of the soul, I was left with myself healing myself, I saw an integrative doctor twice and an acupuncturist helped keep my organs going. And I saw an herbalist at the time and herbs always came to me because I use herbs and I was an herbalist and many past lives too. So I just know herbs. I don't know, I never took a class in it. They just like make sense to me, and I figure it out. So I was working on surviving and saving my own life. And so at 40 I basically went through that dark night of the soul and was healing myself, and learning these things, and then met a series of different people on my path. As I was surviving, and as I was healing and moving forward, I would meet different people would just show up in my path and show me things and teach me things. So it was just very organic. And I would be introduced to someone or I would meet someone in a coffee shop or whatever it is they would just fall into my life just I didn't work at it. It just like they came into my life and then helped me and supported me and taught me different things. And I don't know it's it's all been pretty miraculous to get me back onto the path that I was supposed to be on.
Alexandra Hughes 13:23
Yeah, those sort of bread crumbs or serendipitous synchronicities, you know that happen. And always I don't know, I've been kind of live leaning into the magic for years now, but they always still surprise me.
Allison Holaday 13:40
Yeah, yeah. But I'm curious.
Alexandra Hughes 13:43
And maybe you want to share it, and maybe you don't. And we can edit it out if you don't, but I'm curious to know, like, was there something at 40 that triggered this? Or something?
Allison Holaday 13:55
Oh, yeah. Oh, no, I can share. Yeah. Oh, yeah. I can share and I run groups. I'm running one tonight, actually. And I share all of the story. I'm not afraid to share. So I was in a basically a 360 degree out of alignment at that period of my life. It was, I was in a failing marriage. Were very close friends. Now. It's great. But I was in a failing marriage. And I was living in a state I didn't like doing a job I didn't like it was just it was it was 24 hours a day out of alignment. And then I worked in a moldy building. My old career was art. So I worked in art for 15 years in Providence, Rhode Island, and then Manhattan, New York, New York City. And then I had shifted after the economy had its weirdness in 2009. I had shifted back to my business school education and I was doing accounting and stuff like it was the worst for an artist and right brain In person, so I was doing it to keep money in and things like this. But basically, long story short, just everything was out of alignment in my life and the universe was shaking me. And I always say, with my clients, like, be careful, if you don't listen, it gets louder and louder and louder. It'll crash your car, the universe doesn't play, this isn't a joke, we're trying to awaken and get you on that path. And the whole game here is to graduate Earth. And so what that can be if you're ignoring, it just gets more and more uncomfortable. And it almost killed me. And I'm not the only person that that's happened to there's many people that will get, I sit with clients, you know, with stage four cancer and they go, I already know, this is the greatest thing that's ever happened to me. And they're about to go in for surgery next week, like they're already getting, you know, so it's different for everybody. Sometimes it takes a little time. And sometimes it's right away, and people are like, this is a lesson I was Go, go go and I need to sit down, I need to pause, I need to do self care, I need to take care of myself. And that's what this cancer is about, or whatever, you know. So it's really fascinating. So, yeah, I think there's myriad ways that it can affect people or different things. But that was my clarion call. It was like there's no support, everyone abandoned me, the second I got sick, it was like a movie, it was so bizarre. It was like the Twilight Zone, it made no sense. And finally, six months into it, I said, Well, this has to be for a reason to show me how strong I am. This is this has to be for a reason that I'm going through this completely alone. And in my infancy when I had this, I didn't have the loving nurture, and support from my family that other kids had. I was also a twin in the womb, and I lost my twin in the womb. And so there was all this sadness and missing someone and sorrow. A lot of people have that it's actually really common. But I was born so ill that channeling on it, what I got is that if the if both of us had been born, we both would have died in infancy. So the other twin basically sacrificed and died so that I made it because I was still sick. But we would have been like, you know, so I had all these different like emotions as a, as a child without this like loving, nurturing support in my family unit for different reasons. And so it kind of mirrored that kind of heartache, from the beginning of life and then at 40. And so it kind of looped back into this mich mystery illness. But about a year into it or nine months, I can't remember now I did the same thing. I said, this was the greatest thing that's ever happened to me. And until we look at our adversity, and we look at our struggle that way, we're never going to graduate, we're never going to ascend and awaken and go into a healing path. Because we can't be in that victimhood of like, oh, life happens, you know, to me, and oh, it's so awful. And all these things, there's always going to be suffering. That's the point. It was never supposed to be easy here. We chose this. And at some point, I know that I chose my family, I was channeling with my spirit, about nine months ago. Last year, September, I had the last near death experience. And I was at a low point. And I just had this experience. And I said, Well, this is really interesting. Like, what is this about? You know, and I was having these like thoughts and I communicated with my spirit. And the way to my understanding, channeling what I've understood is that the spirit picks a soul and the soul picks a body. And then we come in. And my spirit said, Well, you chose that family. And you chose all of this so that you can wake up into unconditional love and graduate and get out of here in one lifetime. And then wait. Well, you're not kidding. Wow. I just was like, Okay. And that's kind of what it's been. It's been kind of a slog, and like a lot of health issues, and all these different things will go in and out of these like mystery remissions. But I've had a retest and world, and they can't ever figure it out, you know? So I just, I lean into it and love it. And I just say, well, if I have this stuff, then I have it for a reason. And that's okay. And I can sit with most people having so many health problems through this lifetime. I can sit with most clients, and they'll say the most obscure thing and I go, yeah, 2017 I had it. I understand that like what, no one even knows what this is. I go Yeah, I have it like so. It's it's interesting, because it helps me create a bond and a deep compassion, because a lot of doctors and nurses, they don't have the illnesses that they're helping to treat, and they've never had them. And so it's not that they can't give them adequate care and be compassionate and empathetic, but I see the energy every day with people that know I've had what they're dealing with And they're like, shoulders relaxed, and they're like, Okay, she gets it, she's been through it. So I think chronic health issues or whatever it may be like that is some of the greatest awakening that can happen. It grief and bereavement and health issues are really challenging, but beautiful vehicles to awaken.
Alexandra Hughes 20:26
Wow, thank you for sharing all of that, first of all, but I really do want to dive into more of your healing journey and your magic and how you support people. And it's so true, you know, like, how different would it feel to go to a healer who has embodied? Right, yeah, as opposed to kind of a an authority who has read about it on paper, right, or just experienced it through treating other people, that's a totally different story. But I want to back up a little bit, because I want to, and I and if you were explaining it to me, you would be explaining it to the converted, because I get it when you're saying you know, when you say things like graduate from this earth walk, or you know, you've been a healer in power herbalist in past lives, let's talk a little bit about if you could explain to someone who had never heard of past lives, or who didn't understand this concept of spirit, soul and body and like maybe this kind of some people call it like a contractual arrangement that you make when you come here. And, you know, this idea that we just kind of have to slot I guess maybe what it is, Allison, actually is this kind of institutionalized religion. And I'm, you know, you and I are on Turtle Island. So a lot of a lot of it is Christian based, that not only separates us from the earth, which we talked about before we hit the record button, but also gives us this idea that you kind of have to slog it through, and then you die and go to heaven, where instead of like you being this active agent that has chosen to be here to take to heal something to learn something, can we can you just explain a little bit about your framework or paradigm, or our framework or paradigm? Because I I'm totally I totally get it just for listeners who may be like, what what is she talking about here? What is this? Soul body agreement, Yang and learning through the suffering and what is?
Allison Holaday 22:48
Yeah, so the earth school is the hardest dimension that we know of. And we choose it, and only the strongest souls choose to come here. And it's really challenging because it's supposed to be to awaken us, where we graduate, we go to a different dimension, that's a lot easier. Some people call it heaven, whatever it is, I experienced it, and full cognitive and my two near death experiences, it's bliss. I was negotiating not to come back, please, I don't have kids, I don't, you know, I don't have much holding me there, you know, my beloved dog, Linda, on certain things. And I said, oh, like let me stay in like beings that guide you are like, laughing at me, Oh, silly human, you don't negotiate here. That's not how this works. And they said you're built, they tell you what your mission is a lot of times, and then they put you back in the body to do it. So I'm doing it, I'm doing exactly what they told me to do. But the point of the earth school is basically to have these lessons. And we have to learn from them and heal from them. That's why you know, somebody that will keep dating the same jerky or high or having the same experience over and over when they're not learning, right? So they're just still attracting whatever it is that they have to heal over and over and over. And at some point, the point of it is that this is as I always say, this is a video game and we have the controller, and we get to create the life we want. We're in co creation with God's source, the universe creator, and we're working to create whatever life we want. And it's all energy, whatever vibration and frequency that we put out, is what we get back. If you put out love then you get things to be feel love, right to feel loving about. If you put out anger you get things to be pissed that if you put out any any emotion, that's exactly what you're going to get more of. So part of graduating Earth is mastering your energy because there's going to be suffering they're supposed to be to get you to awaken. So there's always going to be suffering And but lean into that suffering and learn from it. What can we learn from it? Right? So like, if something annoys you, it's teaching you patience, right? Anything that we push against anything where there's any level of resistance is where we have to lean in and learn and heal from. It's, it's, it's paramount to understanding what the game is here. And if we don't see it that way, it's really hard. And it's really painful. Because if we're just going to see it, like an atheist point of view, for instance, and they're outside all of the mystery, they've closed the door to any mystery, right? The grain unknowing that just, it's closed, well, they have a really tough time. They have a lot of frustration, and anger, and deprivation, lots of things like this, because they're not open to the mystery. And when you're closed, and shut down from that, it is like you described just slogging through in this, like, this life. And then you're just, you know, go and die and rot in the ground. Or, as you speak of the religiosity path, if you speak of the religious path, it's also similar, like, you're just doing this for no reason. Like, you're just, you're just going through it day by day, and then you get the the just reward at the end. But either way, is an avoidance of the life journey. And we need to love and live in this life journey, and pay attention to it every time. And every time that we come here, we need to love it, and lean into it, and not try to push against it. Because if we push against the suffering, it grows. So I did that even with, you know, menstrual cramps, I get menstrual cramps, and I would go, you're here for a reason. What are you here to show me? Thank you. And I asked for more. And as soon as you surrender to the point of asking for more that of what's hurting you, because if everything is energy, it releases in two minutes. It has to that's, that's lawful. So some things are energetic law. It's lawful, there's no, there's no way around that. And so sometimes I'll sit with clients and I go, you know, they'll have a health issue or something I go, can you surrender enough to ask for more? Oh, are you crazy? How can I, you know, they fight me and stuff. And then we end up laughing, you know, but that's the point is that we have to get to a place of such complete surrender, that even the thing that you feel could be killing you killing the body, that you're in your spirit, your soul, you never died. It's not possible. You're just the body dies, the energy, the spirit and soul can't ever die. It doesn't go anywhere. But the more that you can lean in and surrender to that is, the more free you are. That's freedom. That's bliss, that nothing gets a trap, right? There's no hooks and traps. There's nothing getting at you. And there's nothing that's got you, because there's no attachment in that. Right? It's suffering is attachment, but it's suffering is attachment is just to show us about our suffering. That's all that is, that's just an awakening to teach us about that. Like if we're really suffering, we're really attached, were attached to the pain, right? Like, I'll pull a tumor out of somebody and I go, Okay, I want you to go to a doctor and get a scan because you need to see it. Because they have so much attachment and identity around the illness at times, it's nobody's fault. It just happens that they can't imagine being without even though that's all they want.
Alexandra Hughes 28:41
One thing that all witches have in common is their practice for cyclical living. For me, the piece of social conditioning that kept me from hearing my intuition for decades, was my addiction to busy doing and I'll be honest, slowing down and resting, honoring my very own winter, when my body calls for it is still and will probably forever be a growth edge. This is why I created the cycle Your Guide to cyclical living. It's a super simple framework and practical tool that will help you harness nature's ancient wisdom in your modern everyday life. It's a free download that includes a cycle poster print, a description of the cycles, four phases, and some practical startup Tips For those new to cyclical living. You can check it all out at Alexandra hughes.com/the cycle. That piece about surrender and like even in surrendering to a point where you are even inviting more is like the word I would use for that. And that I've kind of been playing with a little bit is neutralizing the power it has over you. Yes Right, you know, it's almost like sometimes I say, because the the narrative or the language that I use is like the patriarchal. And by that I mean, you know, colonial white supremacist, these narratives that live inside of us because we're part of this soup, you know? And how do we shine a light on these? Like this is kind of parallel language, right? How do we shine a light on these so that they are, you can see them? And then how do you befriend them, forgive them, surrender to them. Because when you're able to do that, then you're able to neutralize the power that they have over you. And it just generates space to plant new seeds, but space to kind of release. And that sounds sort of, I mean, for you, like your magic, working with actual physical conditions, like that's huge. I'm not there. But in a way, like neutralizing the core elements that build the pain and the suffering, I think, I very much a lot of what you're saying resonates with me, thank you. Thank you for sharing all of that. Thank you for sharing your wisdom in that way. I have this like ping in my mind, but it's like, don't forget to ask her about the near death experiences, everyone's gonna want to know about the Near Death Experiences. Can you tell us about that? I mean, everybody's curious, like, what is that? Yeah. What is that? What was that? Like? What was on the other side?
Allison Holaday 31:45
What were the matches, there's a moment, right, as you're dying, that you're released, and you're not afraid. And I do, I actually do a lot of work. One of the services that I offer is spiritual assistance with dying, or with passing. And I do it with animals also could be at a horse farm, it could be at someone's home with an animal, or people as well, and human animals. And so there's a moment where I can I can kind of having died, I can go into the room and I know where the animal or the being is basically, in the death process. There's there's a moment where you release and you're, you're not afraid, and you're not clinging or holding on, you're already releasing and letting go. So for me both times, I did not go through a tunnel, a lot of people describe a tunnel. I did not go through a tunnel. One of them I was floating above my body. And the one at 40 that I had, they showed me there are these beings. And I'm also a galactic Energy Master. I had an alien visitation experience when I was seven that was really loving and amazing. So I'm also a galactic master. So I channel heal with the Galactics all the time and talk with them and things like that as well. That's what I mean, I can't, there's too many things. Forget that. But so for me, the guides both times as an adult were Galactics. But some people will say it's Jesus. Some people say it's an ancestor, like a light being an angel, different things. There's no right or wrong. We all have different guides. But we pretty much all have guides that I've seen and when I've talked with other people that have had these experiences. And so basically, they showed me like the abridged version of the one when I was 14. So it was like this infinite wall of moving light, like vibrating moving light, like the light, like this wall of light was alive. I don't know how to. I mean, I don't even know how to put it into words, really. It was more of a feeling. And I said, Well, what is this? And they said, Well, this is what humans are. And they've lost their way. And they don't know that they're light. And you have to go back and plug them in one by one. And I laughed. And I said, yeah, no, Nbd no big deal. Like that sounds easy. Like what? And they said, Well, that's what you have to do. And I said, okay, but the cool thing is that I want to share too at the beginning of it. I saw my childhood dog, and she was there in front of me. And she was a Golden Retriever named Jesse. And she was in front of me and she doesn't have arms to do this. But it was the energy of like, Come on, let's go. And she was ahead of me and she wanted me to go with her. And I'm in such a state of bliss. There's no pain aches, any negative emotions. It's like there's a line. I would say there's like a demarcation line. And all the negative feelings or ailments are emotions are a race like on a chalkboard. They're just a race. And I tried to remember them for a second. And I couldn't even I couldn't it was just gone. It's bliss. It's just bliss, absolute bliss. And then I was negotiating, they were laughing at me, put me back in the body, one of the things that people don't realize sometimes is when you are over there, your soul, your energy is infinite, infinite, limitless, free freedom healed freedom, bliss. And when they put you back into a body, it physically hurts. It's so confining that it physically hurts, and you're aching. It's awful. And then I was depressed both times, I was depressed. And I didn't talk to anybody really for about three days, because I just didn't want to be here. You know, not like suicidal or anything, but I've just wanted to be back up in bliss. So sometimes when I go into hospice or something, I have to calm myself down. Because I'll go in, and I'm hired by a family. And so I'll go in, and I'm already in bliss for this person, because death is not an error. It's a part of the whole game here. It's not an error we, we run from it. That's why if you look at Western society, that's why we crap on our elders. That's why we put them in homes. That's why we inject toxins into our face. And we do all of these things, because we're running away from the death process. That's what the core of that is. And so there's no there's nothing wrong with aging, there's nothing wrong with becoming an elder. And being in those places in having a beautiful death. We celebrate birth, but we don't celebrate death. And we need to it has to be incorporated. So sometimes I go into the room, and I'm like, so happy. Oh, it's such a beautiful day to die. And I'm thinking these thoughts in my head, and I'm like, Okay, you have to temper yourself down, because they're not, they're grieving in just like, like you don't understand where she are here going is like amazing, you know. So that was the first one. And then that's the second one that was last September was on my bed, I got sick again. Last summer, I was in the hospital briefly things and, and it was really challenging. And a lot happened. And I was in my bed and I, I passed away in the middle of the night again. And the one at 40 was in my bed as well. And just from illness, and I was in my bed, and I knew it was coming. The second one I knew, because I started to separate from my body. And I was very ill at the time, I just gotten out of the hospital a couple of weeks before that. And I knew what was happening. And I went, Oh, here we go. So I'm not afraid, because it's either gonna be permanent, or, you know, and I'm in the bliss, or I'll come back. So I wasn't scared. And that one, I felt really down about myself. I was really depressed, I was at a low point. And I was talking with the beings I was with. And I said, Well, who am I? What did I ever do? How could I ever help people? What did I was like, very down on myself, really. And they said, well, we'll show you. And then they showed me a movie of my life a perfect movie. This is recorded right now everything that we do is perfectly recorded on Earth. It's fascinating. It's I, I was it stopped, it's stunning. And they showed me this movie screen. So it started to the left of it basically was just white blank. And then it started. And then it went what looked like infinite, like, I never saw the end of it. You look down and it just goes forever. And it was this period of my life. As soon as I knew I wasn't going to die in 2017. And I was stabilizing. After I was sick with all my organs and all that stuff. I wasn't able to work a job yet. But I volunteered at a local food bank for a year, two days a week because I was strong enough to help people. And I said all I care about is helping people that have less than me. And I just thought is as sick as I was or whatever. There's still people that can eat. And there's still people that have less than me. So I go in and I do it two days a week. And they showed me that on this movie screen. And they said you didn't help people watch this. And they showed me in the warehouse with the onions and the potatoes and everyone getting their allotment of food for their soup kitchens, pantries, aides, homes, homeless shelters, halfway houses, getting their food, and I made best friends with all the people. And that's my personality. So I'm like, Hey, let's help some folks today and like hugging everybody. They gave me an award because they were like what is this woman we get constant calls and emails about the woman in the warehouse. And I'm just happy to be alive, right. And so they showed me what when I, basically, they showed me helping the people in the warehouse. And they said, and this is what the food did, this is what you did. And they showed the families eating around the table. And then they showed me, the homeless people that the soup kitchens eating, and all this stuff, and they go, this is what you do. This is just what you did for that year. This is how many people you helped, this is what happened, we don't see. And they taught me, we don't see what we do. We don't get to see the ripple all the way through and every person that are energy or are helping, you know what that's truly done, we don't get to see that. So they were showing you that. And they said, But conversely, remember that negative energy can also spread like wildfire to sow positive energy spreads. But negative energy can spread just as easy. So you have to catch yourself, and make sure you master your energy. That's what they taught. They focus so much on energy, teaching your whatever goes out comes back thoughts, everything. And they said, so you have to really master your energy to make sure that you're putting love, unconditional love and helping out instead of negative because that will catch to. So that's what I remember the most from the two adult near death experiences.
Alexandra Hughes 41:27
Yeah, I mean, just such profound wisdom and perspective, right it at the very basic level in terms of lessons. I mean, I have an interpretation that comes to me when you share the story, but in your own words, what do you feel like? Why were you taken to those points of near death? Like what was? What's the why? What's the big lesson there? In your own words for, you know, because you had to come back?
Allison Holaday 41:58
Yeah, what I know is, I've been herbalist and indigenous healers in many past lives. And I wasn't on that path yet in this lifetime. And I believe that I went through all of that, to get me to go so they could actually show me what I had to do and who I am. And so my very first session with someone years ago, now, I had them on the table. And it started right away. Right away. Like when I was a little kid and hugging people and taking things. It started right away immediately in my first session. It was incredible. It was like, nobody taught me to do that. Nobody, I don't even know what I'm doing. You know, like I just but I heard in my first session, I heard a voice in my left ear, I mostly hear things in my left ear. And I heard a voice in my left ear and basically said, she's not sad about her divorce, she's angry, go into our liver and pull it out. And I thought okay, well liver anger. Well, we know that that's ancient, indigenous and Eastern medicine wisdom for 1000s millennia of years. That you know, kidneys is fear, livers anger, grief is long, you know, this is how acupuncture works, you know, all these different things for forever. So I knew that intellectually. Okay, that tracks, anger, liver, pull it out. Why? And that's where I got lost. And then I went, Okay, and she's already meditating. And musics on and so, and I'm just going like, okay, so I took my hand, and I did this jellyfish thing like this. I did this jellyfish motion with my hand. And I pulled it out of her. And I could feel it so strongly, instantly work. And I put it into me, because I didn't know what I was doing. So she's crying and releasing and having this whole experience on the couch, releasing all of this stuff and releasing it. And I feel terrible. I don't know what I'm doing. So I go through a series of deep meditations. And then I learned, okay, you can put it into Mother Earth, and then grow something positive from it, like flat wildflowers or things like that, because you can't dump into her without transforming it into something positive. And then through the years have made it faster and easier. And I don't have to involve her. So I just throw everything I pull out into whitefire and then just gone. Yeah, yeah. So yeah. So it just came right away. And no one showed me how to do it. I mean, I took I'm a Reiki Master. Years ago, I did other things where I learned things, but energy release therapy, what I call it, where I pulled out, I'm releasing the energy of things for people and animals and things. No one taught me that. That's from the wisdom handed down. That's what I've been shown that my family line and down everything. So my father passed in 2017. But I talked to him all the time and communicate with him. And he's very happy that I'm living and more in touch with the native side, and I'm doing the things that he didn't get as in touch with, he was aware of it a little bit. And he did some things with us. But now it's really, he's very proud of it. So that's, that's good.
Alexandra Hughes 45:26
He's very proud of it. And it's so needed like time, timely. Now is the time when the Earth needs you and and your medicines so much. What are the practices in the rituals that support you to because you know, it's true, like now you've developed a technique where you're taking in the energy and you're, you know, you're immediately placing it in the white fire. But still, like this work can be. I'm just going to use the word draining, right. And there's something about having practices or tool but a toolbox that you can turn to to kind of support your magic. Yeah. And your medicine woman, like the way you the path that you walk.
Allison Holaday 46:19
Yeah. Yeah, when I first started doing this, it was Help, Help Help. That's my mission, help, help help. And like I was very selflessly helping, but it wasn't balanced. It was overworking, taking everyone taking everything on. And my ex husband who's like one of my best friends, now, he has been running his own business and working for businesses for, I don't know, 30 years. And he saw me in the kitchen one day, and he stopped me and he said, You can't work like this, even though you're helping people on its, you know, spiritual and different things like you have to take more time. So for the last couple of years, I really block my schedule off, and I put myself first because you can't help right until you fill your own cup first and then. So I do take time. I love to bike ride, go to the beach. I meditate, a dear woman that we were connected and very close in a past life. She's heart meditation teacher at a college, she's amazing. And I do meditation sittings with her and cleanse, she cleanses my heart of all the energy of people and different things I do, which is really incredible. Yeah, and meditate and do some stretching. And then I also am in the woods all the time. I live in a little city in Providence, Rhode Island, but very close by I get in the woods with my dog all the time. So I do a lot of things like that, where I just spend a lot of time grounding, I have no earth at my chart. None. I have no grounding in my chart in my astrological chart. So I have to ground and I have to pay attention to be barefoot when I'm barefoot most of the time, my whole childhood, most of the time I was barefoot. So I'm still that way. So yeah, so yeah, just try to spend extra time like balancing and taking time off and, and taking time for myself. I think it's I think it's important. But I do want to help as many people whether it's through, you know, connecting with past loved ones, or all the different things that I can do. And it changes and grows every day, which is really exciting and cool too. But I do this work to just help people and animals. And animals need a lot of help. We've lost over 50% of wildlife on this planet. We're not imbalance, we're taking more than we need. The 3d is built on greed, you know, the lower dimensions and fear and scarcity, lack. And so we're we're taking and animals are suffering. I saw a statistic recently that if we killed humans at the speed that we kill food animals, farm animals, the entire 8.8 billion humans on the planet would be dead in 17 days. What are we doing? What are we doing? What are we a part of? What is that violence? What is that trauma doing to the consciousness of our planet, to our bodies to our energy to each other? Right? I worked in animal rights briefly. I don't know, about 20 years ago now, I guess 15 years ago, and I came up with this. This plan. I said, Well, why don't we put vegetarian options in prisons? If people are in there for violent crimes? Why don't we not feed them a plate of violence? Why don't we just see, like what happens? And everybody laughed at me. And this was like 2005 Maybe everybody laughed. And then they did it in California a couple of years ago when I saw it, and all the rapes and all the violence and everything went almost to nothing. I mean, it was Just first that Gandhi first they laugh at you, right? And then they become you are, you know, understand you. So it's funny because I've seen those things happen. But I just try to live in non violence and tread as lightly on the planet and with other people and beings as I can. And as a child, I just, I always felt that eating animals just wasn't in alignment for me personally. And so I gave them up very young. And I never went back and never looked back. And so for me, it's just something that can't do. And as an animal communicator, they all have such individual lives and personalities, and oh my gosh, it's unbelievable. So it's just not something I could ever engage with. I was just too way too sensitive for that. I felt like I could feel them, you know, and now when I'm, when I'm out, you know, I can, and there's animals being served, they'll talk to me, they'll show me their death. I mean, it's a lot. So I just I, yeah, so it's like, if I'm around alcohol, or cannabis or something, like I feel drunk or high F to be very careful. Or if I'm in a museum, the artists start talking to me and I, I get overwhelmed a lot, because I'm like, an open channel, in some ways from these near death experiences. It's like, a lot. So I spend a lot of time alone. And I'm happy. I've been blessed with it. You know, Pete, oh, you must be so lonely. Now, I'm actually good. I work with a lot of people. And then I spend a lot of time alone, and I like it. So that's actually part of my ritual, too, is just being alone, and recharging myself alone. And I'm not afraid to be alone. I'm not afraid. I don't need to always have connection connection is important. And I value it. But I am sensitive. So I do need a lot of time alone. And, and I feel like that recharges me a lot as well. Yeah.
Alexandra Hughes 51:57
And so do you do anything specific in the alone time? Or is it just simply the being alone? Yeah, I'm
Allison Holaday 52:05
also alone. Yeah. Yes. Just the being alone. Yeah. I just really feel like almost like a calling internally, to like, just be alone for a bit. Yeah. And it doesn't matter. Exactly. It doesn't matter what I do. I'm just alone. And I need that. So it's interesting, when I come into contact with people that have to never be alone, they almost freak out if they're alone, or they have to have constant stimulation or people around them. And they're just on the opposite. There's nothing wrong with it. It's just the opposite wavelength. I'm like, Oh, my God, aren't you exhausted?
Alexandra Hughes 52:43
I'm alone or too late. Yeah, I really, and I really need it. You know, like, if we go on holiday and share a smaller space and kind of end up as a family doing stuff together a lot. I actually get really grumpy and super exhausted and only recently realized that it's because the alone time is my medicine. Yeah. Yeah. And is there a way for you to create some kind of a bubble? Or, like if you go to a restaurant, and I mean, I just, you know, as an empath, myself who can feel other people's feelings, I cannot even imagine going to an art gallery and like, like, it's like, a 10th level, right? Yeah. No, to feel even. I mean, it's beautiful. Because I imagine sometimes, there's just amazing messages coming through, but at the same time, it's just a lot. Yeah, it is a lot. So the the animals and the yeah, there's, after they've because
Allison Holaday 53:43
there's so much suffering with the animals. There's so much suffering, wildlife, farm animals, like even cats and dogs and so many places. It's just, it is just such a level of suffering, what we're doing with animals who are fellow, like, you know, we, like we were talking about before we hit record. You know, we think that we're like outside or above nature, but we are nature. And that's what I always talk about my work is like, the greatest way to heal is go back to nature, we are nature. And when we're outside of it, that's why we have such a sick society because we're disconnected from who we are the innate part of who we are. So like, and I think there's cognitive dissonance as well, like, we forget, we don't want to know how smart farm animals are, or certain wildlife because of what we do to them. Like if we think about how smart and special and brilliant they are like a cheetah running 70 miles an hour or dolphin swimming like incredible surfing the waves like it's easy for us to block it out to some degree because of what we do. And so it's like safer space. But that doesn't mean that that's where we're supposed to be. We need to be in harmony with all of our brothers and sisters and In the beautiful birds of the sky, and the beautiful creatures in the ocean, and everything, we're all here for a reason to be in harmony together. So yeah, there are different protections, my aura is 10 miles wide. So something could happen eight miles from me and affect me, it's outrageous. So one of the things I do that we all do, and I used to teach protection classes at times for empaths and different things, is you can pull your aura and temporarily my aura is now temporarily close to the energy of others. And throughout a matter of hours that will release on its own. But it helps if you have to go into a hospital, teachers in a school wherever there's a lot of energy, movie theater, you know, different things. Shopping Mall, can be very draining. So just temporarily pulling the aura closed, it doesn't mean you won't deeply connect with your children or your family or things. But it just keeps their energy with them and yours with your container. And that's like the strongest one that I do. And then I do the bubble and I call upon different beings and stuff. So I do it all day, every day. Pretty much. But yeah, but those things, they they definitely helped me. Because there are places where I will feel extremely uncomfortable. And then I just I I just leave, I just go I just I leave. I mean some of it's fun though to like, it's not all doom and gloom, like, I get to a really high frequency. And then I go to Whole Foods, and I'll drop cans on the floor, and no one sees it or hears it. Or I just rap I make like weird noises and no one looks at me, it's like I'm invisible. Because everything is just frequency. And if you put yourself on such a different frequency, and then the people that you're around, it's like shapeshifting, they can't see you. So some of it's fun. Like, it's great to be able to do that. This is what the Guru's in India have been doing. You know, they do telepathy, levitation, they do all these things. They're just playing with the mystery, right? And how powerful we are ourselves. And when you trust them, believe in yourself and what you can achieve and do, it can be very fun. So I try to focus more on the fun aspects of it than like the painful stuff. And I know my limitations and where I don't feel comfortable. Like, if someone invites me to go to a bar, well, I'm 47 years old, I've never been drunk in my life, I knew as a child intuitively, that's not going to bring anything positive, that's a net negative, there's nothing positive that's going to come out of that. So I never went down that road. So there's many things that were different than me. But I was never afraid to be myself, even as a child, not eating animals, being sober, you know, not partying, like all the different pathways and different things I chose, I was mostly standing alone, you know, and sometimes people would ridicule it, sometimes people will make fun of it, but I wasn't going to change. And so with my spiritual abilities, that's still who I am. Now, I get off the bike path. I'm channeling and communicating with a snapping turtle on the bike path in front of a guy who's completely mainstream. And he's looking at me like what's going on, and I'm with my friend, and I'm talking to the snapping turtle, right? And in front of this guy, and he's watching me like, What is how my eyes are closed, you know, and everything. But people don't challenge or bully me because I live in my authenticity, this is who I am. These are my abilities, this is what I can do. And I hold that. And the more that you hold that people can feel authenticity. So he didn't understand what was going. But he didn't question it. So that's what I think a big key of our lives is figuring out who we are, and then holding to that authenticity. And then love each other. Love everyone. Take care of everyone. give to people who have less than you. You want to shift and change your life, help people. There's always someone that has it worse, as tough as you have it. I guarantee you, there's a million people that have it worse. And there's always ways that we can raise them up and help them. Always it could be the littlest thing, like working at the food bank two days a week, and it creates this ripple effect that I did. You know, and doing it from a selfless place not for the award or the pat on the back. That surprised me, you know, but if we can help people and help the earth and help animals and do right by things and be as conscious as possible, in a largely unconscious world, that shifting and becoming more conscious, let's help the others come up into that consciousness. Because when I'm in a wrap up when I'm around a lot of people that are unconscious, like 3d, lower dimension, things like that, to me, they feel dead. With my abilities. They feel dead like robots, zombies. It's sad, but I have to love them. Wherever they are, right? Because if I don't love them, they're never going to get up to where we are. They're not gonna awaken and start the path. So I just try to love them, right where they are as much as I can. Because that's what they need. Love is the greatest healer nature's the greatest healer. These two things are inseparable. They work together in harmony. And anytime that we're trying to heal without love, is never going to work. And anytime we're trying to heal without nature, it's never going to work.
Alexandra Hughes 1:00:32
Well, there's a quote love and nature. I mean, who can just sum it up so beautifully. I was gonna ask you, I asked all my guests, you know, what is your definition of magic? And I'll ask you anyway, but I feel like you've kind of touched upon it.
Allison Holaday 1:00:53
Yeah, magic, I think magic is undefinable. I think magic is the undefined. It's the unknowable. And I find that that's hopeful. Limitless bliss, like freedom. I think that magic is outside of definition. And that it really is about anything can be. And we can create anything. You know, we can bend spoons with energy with our mind, we can do anything in the world that we want. And so I think magic is like everything all at once, like infinite flow, and there's no way to determine. And one person's magic is different than another. But it all has a place. And it's all beautiful. And it's all wonderful. And it's all hopeful. This life is a gift. And it's really hard to be on the earth school. But I but it's also a gift. And the more we can see it as a gift, the easier it will be.
Alexandra Hughes 1:01:56
Thank you. Can you tell us a little bit about where people can find you. And your medicine? Allison?
Allison Holaday 1:02:05
Yeah, so I have a website. It's Alison little feather.com. It used to be my last name, but my last name is spelled a little different. So I worried that people would spell it different. So I changed it to Allison little feather.com, my native name so that that works easier, I don't think as many people misspell that. So on there, you can reach out to me get sign up for my newsletter. And that will have all my classes and events and circles. And I'm also going to start to do these on guided nature walks where I channel with all the woodland creatures, for messages, and then tree communication. And then teach people how to communicate with trees themselves. And so just the newsletter will have all of that. And through my website, you can see my services, I work on zoom with clients all over the world, I'm very grateful for that. There's always a sliding scale option if there's a need to help everyone and animals and all sorts of different things. And there's more services that I do that aren't even on there. But I just don't have time to, to do the website start like business part of everything. And then I'm on my Instagram quite a bit. So I mentioned that as well. And I'll get more into the digital side of things soon, like YouTube and, and different things. But for now, my Instagram is my last name at Holiday healing. So it's h o l a da y. So like, all odd day. And that's how you spell it. But yeah, so that's how basically, you can find me for now. And yeah, I just like to work and collaborate with people and meet people like this. So this is as much of a gift for me, you know, and just to be able to connect with people, and that's what I'm here to do is just help people and I hope to heal people and animals and help things on the earth. And until the day I die. And the other thing I love to do, actually, for self care is I go to all the local powwows. And that's really nice medicine for me. Yeah. So I like to do that to dance and powwows and things. So that's, that's always fun.
Alexandra Hughes 1:04:18
Dancing is such medicine.
Allison Holaday 1:04:21
Yeah, I grew up as a dancer third generation. So I'm very happy when I'm dancing too. I forgot that one. So I thought I slipped that in. But yeah, that's how you can find me. And thank you so much for having me truly. Thank you,
Alexandra Hughes 1:04:35
Alison. Thank you not only for being here, but for having the courage after these probably quite frightening experiences in some way. But it also sounds blissful and maybe disorienting, but for really like honoring your legacy and your the ancestral wisdom that the world needs right now and for really stepping into it. I'm so grateful that World is all the better for it your blessing. Thanks for being on the podcast. It's been.
Allison Holaday 1:05:06
Thank you so much. Thank you.
Alexandra Hughes 1:05:09
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